Why do they like me?
Is there even a real reason?
Why can't I just be a monster?
Is it to much to ask if you can stop the promise?
If there was a way to do this would I find it?
Do I already know the way?
So whats holding me back? The thought of loosing what finally looked like the start of something worth it?
To gain the wisdom and control of the what I am?
And what's with this body?
Why does it hurt so much?
Not from physical pain either?
Why then don't I want to move?
Why does it all not want to respond?
Am I not pushing it hard enough?
So why do I have this urge?
This urge to use all my power at once?
To strike something as hard as I can with whatever I can?
Why does it feel like I'm waiting for the right thing?
Why does it feel like it's me?
And why do I have to type this?
What's making me type this?
Can't I stop any of it?
Should I try?
What If I fail?
Why are my hands shaking?
Am I making them type too much?


Does this finally make me weak?
Can I finally be called pointless?